Attending SICCC as long as I remember allowed me to grow up close to God but that spark still wasn't there. I kept learning Sunday after Sunday but it still didn't stick. It was only a surface level understanding of God’s love. After the start of middle school I felt like I was more matured but it still didn't give that right feeling. I wasn't willing to put 100% trust, I still felt lukewarm.
Then during one of the youth retreats, it got the ball rolling. Then with this new found knowledge about fellowship and spreading the good news. Then I felt like it might've been a spiritual high so I prayed and had tried to have a deeper understanding. I was also trying harder and harder after every attempt to be better. After finally seeing the whole picture, everything just snapped while I was there reading Psalm 56:3-4, thus showing me that I shouldn't be scared of anything as long as I have the Lord. So from that moment on, I prayed to confess my sins and accept Christ Jesus into my life to be my Lord and Savior. After I had accepted Christ I wanted to devote my life to Jesus. I started reading the Bible, praying more and having a profound connection to the Lord. I also realized that I am more social, so I tried inviting more and more people to Friday night youth fellowship at SICCC.
I truly feel like that is a big gift that the Lord has given me. To this day I strive to be a better follower of Jesus and try to grow a stronger bond with the Holy Spirit. All I needed was to trust that God has got my back and let Him take control. Looking back I definitely see major differences, I notice I tend to speak to friends and peers about Christianity and I see me learn to ask God for what I need help with, not doing things by myself but with God. On top of that I’ve come across John 14:27 and it has motivated me and reminded me of peace. I've also seen myself use what God has given me. In retrospect this is a big step up and great achievement, this is just the beginning of my relationship with God and I look forward to the future and what God has for me. And being a
follower of Christ, I will go out and make disciples of all nations.
“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.” (John 14:27)